A small world of Janice

2012-02-16T06:45:00.000-08:00

不要艳羡他人，谁都有苦痛；

不要输掉自己，振作比一切都强。

next lesson

2012-02-14T10:55:00.000-08:00

the next lesson of my life will be

the lesson of obedient

and achieve another level of mental maturity.

Im not trying this time

cause I will actually doing that.

离人节

2012-02-14T10:10:00.000-08:00

原以为他答应了我的预约

，

还以为我们会有共进情人节晚餐的机会

谁知道情人节的前一天

收到了他的信息

原本在戏院里的我根本没心情把戏追下去

朋友发现我的脸色变了

结果结局怎样我都不懂

那一夜我们吵得很凶

没心情想那么多

去了7-11 买了两支beer

想说醉死就算

我知道目前我这情况

没有人会相信我的心还有你

现在我仿佛正慢慢掉入深渊

身边的人都劝我回头

但说真我没有那意愿

虽然知道我已经伤害了妈妈的心

但叛逆的我还是执意要那样做

对不起妈，我不是乖女儿

对不起世乾，我不是乖女友

真的很迷茫。。。。

到头来，想想，这就是我要的吗？

baby, 其实，如果你了解，我只是贪玩。

今天情人节

虽然没情人

但我还是有收到鲜花和礼物

反而那些没庆祝没礼物没鲜花的情侣们还羡慕于我

说真的如果这些礼物可以换来我跟你一天的时光

就算一分钟我也愿意 :)

能跟深爱的人在一起就已经很满足了

物质真的不那么重要

那天叫他把bear拿回去

他没来我懂他也不好过

他一直在等我的改变

无奈我让他更失望

不想再看见他的难过

我只会伤害对我好的人

这是我最失败的地方

既然他不来拿，

现在我就不会再还给他了

bear不是你说来就来，

说拿就拿的

为什么不顾它感受？

我会做个好妈妈

因为我学会顾及它的感受了

也许

真的真的是时候停止那份工作了吧

不要再把自己【迷失】了

总有一天会出事的我知道

脚踏实地还是会离成功近一点

今夜

我____又想你了

No measure of time with you, would be long enough. But we'll start with forever

我知道我们之间最大的问题

是我没办法得到你的信任

我矛盾我善变

容易受外界影响

才造就你对我的的不安全感

对不起

its all my failure

At the end,

I get nothing at all.

I knew.

Understood.

2012-01-19T08:12:00.000-08:00

最经一直很烦恼。
还以为挨过了痛苦的失恋期，完成了考试期，就可以松下一口气快快乐乐的应接新的一年。
怎知道，最经的工作带给了我很多的烦恼。
感叹，有另一半也烦，单身更烦。
其实单身并没有想象中快乐。
会有一大群男生接近你，千方百计约你。
最烦的就是必须一直猜测他们的目的。
谁叫我本身就好奇心强？哈哈怪不了人

自己找不到答案，到处询问别人的意见
其实，别人的意见一点都不重要
因为别人不是你，只有你最清楚你要的是什么
他对你的感觉也只有你自己最清楚
反正真心是骗不了人的，时间可以证明一切
放长双眼看吧。
多听听自己心里的声音，别再被外在因素左右了
之前已经说了
很多时候都没有对与错，
跟着心的感觉走，就对了。
人生不能重来，错过就变成遗憾了。
只要你相信它存在，它就会发生
它就是【奇迹】

珍惜眼前人。

Worthy

2012-01-19T06:57:00.000-08:00

Believe In Faith ♥

Law Of Attraction Will Be The Secrets Of Success!

You Will Be Good Jia Chian ♥

2012-01-17T11:01:00.000-08:00

是不是越简单就越快乐？

我并不复杂，只是要求过高

因为我知道

I Always Deserve Better.

Anything Wrong With That?

anyway, this will be my 100th post =D

Live Your Life Jia Chian!

Fight For Everything You Desire.

Don't Lost Faith.

the moment

2012-01-17T10:16:00.000-08:00

I miss you again.

at this time this place this moment.

yea, its again.

A day without you is like a year without rain.

you wanna know how much I miss you?

As much as the deserts miss the rain.

suffocated feelings that you wouldn't ever understand.

why I couldn't let go of you?

because you were the first one that I treat you with entire heart without taking any benefit from you.

the moment with you were so real.

nothing can describes the happiness when I was with you.

but the truth were always being disappointment.

expected, right?

as I told you, you will be the first and last person that deserve my sincerity.

no kidding.

is already impossible for me to trust another guy other than you.

there all just trying to grab benefit from me.

so do I.

even I'm be with anyone of them, my heart still get reserved.

I'm not happy ever since.

expected. :)

nothing more to expect, just wish that you could live happily ever after.

and found your perfect girl.

best of luck for you.

good luck.

love you,

till my last breath ♥

your smile melts my heart.

变质

2012-01-17T09:49:00.000-08:00

一直很疑惑，自从他的离开和我踏入这份新工作，
前前后后都有不少人一直对我重覆着同样的话。
就是：【你变了】。

真的吗？不断反复思索。
是否我真的变了仰或这就是原来的我？
妈妈说自从我跟他分手了之后我变得很可怕很陌生。
我说，那当然。
因为我一直是被他囚禁在笼子里的鸟。
很多时候都被他束缚在可以和不可以做之间。
没有自由没有自主权。
拼了命压抑自己，结果得到了什么？回想起来觉得真的很可笑。
为什么我要把绘画我的世界的笔交由他人手上？
我的世界我的生活应该由我来规划。

很多时候，我会反复自问，我现在这样做的每一件事，到底是对还是错？
对或错的定义在那里？对与错的标准在何方？
谁人来定下这一切？
其实事情往往没有对或错。
只要你的心里告诉你这一切是你所想要去做的事，就别再想那么多，就去完成它吧。

从小我们都一直活在大人们的标准里，什么都不可以反驳甚至反抗。
明明有很多想法却不能得以释放
明明不愿意却又不得不顺从他们
直到现在

我会这样，其实想一想
是我变了？还是这就是本来的我？
你们没发现是因为真实的我已经被惯性隐藏
连我自己有时候也会问我自己
哪一个才是我？我是不是迷失了自己？

现在最想做的就是真的不顾一切
把自己彻底释放
看看自己可以去到哪里...........

说我变了的人
都是些不了解我的人
因为我的【目标】从始至终从未改变过。

Just because everyone else is on the opposite side

doesn't mean you are on the wrong side.

Believe In Fate ♥

2012-01-09T02:37:00.001-08:00

Ola! I'm Back!

2012-01-07T00:58:00.000-08:00

halo my bloggie how are you lately?

doing great?I guess so.

normally I post here means Im not okay or I'm having trouble but peeps dont worry not for today :)

got something happy to share ♥

yesterday we had our first date after broke up.

actually his attitude changed since 7th november 7.11.2011

and our first date after broke up is 7th january 1.1.2012

what a coincidence huh? haha

whatever lar.. that's not the important part. =3

we having our happy meal in KFC again..

that's our favorite food!

uncooperative baby kent zzz

after food we went SEED for shopping session

he going to update stock for his cloths..

I choose the shirt for him and he choose the shirt for me awww

this is the second year we bought cloths together.

too bad this year CNY unable to visit his family =p

but it's all fine.

he still so shy everytime I snap him >//<

cute expression again ♥

then we went catch the small giraffe again..

haha we failed again

expected.

we hold hands we kissing we hugging

we did all the stuff a normal couple will do

BUT

we aren't couple.

there is absence of proper words can describe my feeling towards him

he is more like my family more than a bf or even a friend

anyway, we never contact just like stranger

but somehow we will hang out

when he fall sick I will be there

when I'm fall sick he will be there too.

today he bring my bear back his hometown already

more difficult for me to sleep during night time sighs

but still happy cause he still caring his bear

the bear is our son ♥

guess he is doing great lately.

and yes, same to me.

enjoyed my new life my wild life =p

but it's all over. I had quit that bloody job which drives me wild.

focus on my studies and surprisingly I can do well in that subject!

satisfied feel all over my mind haha

the more the anonymous find me, the more I felt lonely.

cause the one I care doesn't really exist in my life anymore.

no matter how hard I tried to let other substitute to replace his place in my heart I just failed.

seem like the heart already reserved the place for someone.hmmm

anyway, what I wanna says is

2011 is being a bitch to me

but glad that 2012 is a precious present for me!

2012 treats me like baby as I'm happy in everything

appreciated and cherish what I've for present. ♥

love every single things in this little world ♥

bridge over

2011-12-20T11:06:00.000-08:00

you know what?

people can change in the twinkling of an eye.

as I do.

What You Deserve In The Future Is Equals To The Effort You Have Tribute Today.

I'm Going To Bridge Over These Circumstances And Will Not Just Build Castle In The Air!

lesson

2011-12-05T23:09:00.000-08:00

【哈佛大學圖書館館訓】

1、現在睡覺的話，會做夢；而現在學習的話，會讓夢實現。

2、我無所事事的度過了今天，是昨天死去的人們所期望的明天。

3、學習不是人生的全部，但學習都征服不了，那你還能做什麼？

4、今天不想走，明天就要跑了。

5、此刻睡覺的口水將變成明天流下的淚水。

♥PROVE♥

2011-11-29T10:24:00.000-08:00

♥ 时间是唯一的线索......证明我不说的承诺....♥

2011-11-23T20:10:00.000-08:00

有些人不是离开了就能不爱了，不是不见了就能忘记了，不是放手了就能不痛了。我彻底离开了那个有你的城市，不再经过那个曾经一起走过的路口。然后，一个人慢慢蜕变，渐渐遗忘、变成回忆、不再过问。却在最后的最后，发现自己还是爱…这才明白，原来爱情不是离得开，就能不爱的

情里没有对错，也没有先来后到，有的只是爱或不爱，不要等到错过了再去后悔。爱情里没有输赢，只有爱与不爱，爱就要爱的痛快，不爱就忘得干脆。哭哭啼啼挽回的不是爱，而是同情。爱了就爱了，付出了，体验了，哪怕结果是伤了，痛了，不要为自己的付出后悔。

这一世，你是我，遗忘千年的红颜知己，你是我，染尽了红尘，散尽了伤感的思念。缘起缘灭，擦肩而过，谁倾了我的城，我负了谁的心，从此，那一抹容颜遗忘天涯，了无相望。与你，错过一季，那是落花的时节。一身落红，裙袂飘飘，甩出柔情的水袖，恍若甩出千年的过往。

忘记一个人需要多长的时间？一天？一月？一年？对于有些想忘记的人来说，也许只需几个小时，对于不想忘记的人来说，也许是一辈子。醉夜忆往事，漫卷少闲情。想开了，心可以漠视了，也可以释怀了。有些人，你可以爱，却无法拥有；有些爱，你可以体会，却无法抵达。人已去，心不在，满心回忆皆是痛。

现实告诉我们，生活中的错过实在太多，几多惆怅，几多无奈。在不经意间，许多美好的记忆就那样的和我们擦肩而过，随风而去。谁人有那番执着去留守那份弥足珍贵的回忆。回忆里留住的大凡都是那些让人伤心的往事，所以又有谁有勇气去翻开那尘封已久的记忆呢？

曾经以为，这样的一见如故，会是我今生最美丽的相遇；曾经以为，这样的一诺相许，会是我素色年华里最永恒的风景；曾经以为，这样的心心相印，会是我无怨无悔的追逐。却不知，繁华有时，落寞有时，却怎么也读不懂我心头的一丝缠绵，解不透我心间的一抹情意。

请不要假装对我好,我很傻，会当真。感情的戏，我没演技。爱那么短，遗忘那么长。我还在原地等你，你却已经忘记曾来过这里。原来地久天长，只是一场误会。你是我猜不到的不知所措，我是你想不到的无关痛痒。痛过之后就不会觉得痛了；没有什么过不去,只是再也回不去。

如果当初没有遇见你，或许我还是原来的我，站在人群中会不知所措。如果当初你没有离开我，或许我不会像现在这般冷漠，在我学会孤单和寂寞的时候，也明白了什么叫做不可能。可不可以不要再勇敢?可不可以不再假装坚强?可不可以有一个人能够看穿我的逞强？

有时候，有些人不需说再见，就已离开了。有时候，有些事不用开口也明白。有时候，有些路不走也会变长。总望着曾经的空间发呆，那些说好不分开的人不在了，转身，陌路。熟悉的，安静了，安静的，离开了，离开的，陌生了，陌生的，消失了，消失的，陌路了。

当我们原谅了彼此的荒唐，便是此刻的曲终人散场。你说生命从希望开始，而以绝望结束。我说旅途少了一些春光，多了一些悲伤，而人生原本幻灭无常，情爱自会散落四方，最终我们走散在街上，转回头是各自的人海茫茫，但你还是我的糖，装进别人口袋的念念不忘。

有时候，我们感觉走到了尽头，其实只是心走到了尽头。曾以为只要认真地喜欢，就可以打动一个人，原来却只是打动了自己。失去爱的天空，便没有了颜色。直到有一天，你遇到一个人，你们彼此相爱，终于明白，所有的寻觅，再深的绝望，也只是一个过程。几米说过，我总是在最深的绝望里，看见最美的风景.

很多的日子里，喜欢上了伤感。一个人独坐，聆听季节轮回中细碎的声响，看窗外花开时的嫣然和叶落时的飘零，在晨钟暮鼓的更替中倾听岁月细微的心声。一颗煎熬的心就这样起起落落，沉沉浮浮，任疼痛灼伤，任思念蔓延，任泪水涌流。潮湿了季节，苍凉了岁月。太在乎一个人，心情常被左右，剩下只有心痛。

♥ 生活时常和我们开着玩笑，

你期待什么，

什么就会离你越远；

你执着谁，

就会被谁伤害得最深♥

爱自己

2011-11-22T10:56:00.000-08:00

当爱情不在的时候，女孩，请记得，一定要过得开心，因为，爱情并不是我们的唯一，而我们的唯一只有我们自己，别人不会多爱自己，只有自己去好好爱自己，所以，爱情。。。都是自私的，请不要相信它是你的唯一，因为它会带给你伤，带给你痛，更留给你漫无边际的幻想，所以，我们得要学会一个人，学会更好的生活。当他不爱你的时候，请你相信，你的再多挽留都是多余的，请不要相信，他真的是你一生的伴侣，因为男人都是不可靠的，唯一可以相信的，就是自己。当他对你说，真的不可能再在一起的时候，也请你相信，他真的走远了，他的心真的走了，不要再傻傻的相信，还会有机会重新爱上你的可能，因为，人都是跟着自己的感觉走的。谁也不会为了谁而停留。谁也不会为了谁而活不下去，现代的社会，为了爱，而不珍惜自己生命的人，是很傻，很蠢的人，所以女孩，我们要学着坚强一点，并不是没有男人就活不下去。请不要失去自己的自信。因为爱一个人，并非他的优秀，而只是一种感觉。他让你有这样的感觉，于是你爱他。同样，他不爱你，也并非你不优秀。优秀，不是爱的理由。看看还有那么多爱自己的人，淡淡地微笑一下，也是异样甜美的。什么是爱，什么又是情，同样什么又是无奈呢？每个人的见解都是不一样的，不要拿自己的感觉去跟别人去比，　请不要去想相信“永远”。爱没有永远。你此刻深爱，却注定遥远的某一天也不再爱他。他只是比你早一步到达了这一天。爱情每天都在我们生活中重演，要知道那些才是合适我们的。请不要去想到“永远”。爱没有永远。你此刻深爱，却注定遥远的某一天也不再爱他。他只是比你早一步到达了这一天。

领悟

2011-11-21T03:02:00.000-08:00

谢谢你的离开，因为那样才能够让我学会成长。

你一直以来的用心良苦，我居然懵懂地现在才体会到。

你一丝不苟，我冲动慌张，

根本就是火星撞地球。

你大男人，我大女人，

本来就是水火不相容。

你生谋远虑，我当机立断。

你思前虑后，我罔顾后果。

我追求新鲜刺激，你向往朴素平淡，

我欣赏轰轰烈烈，你崇拜细水长流。

纵然这样，我们还是熬过了473天。

这当中，我们欢笑过，悲伤过，伤害过，忍让过，妥协过无数次，

才能走到今天。

然而，我的不珍惜，不信任，自私，任性，野蛮，不成熟，不羁，顽固，叛逆

成为了摧毁我们恋情的杀人凶手。

总以为，我离开了之后，

只要一回头，就会一如往常地在下一个转角看见你的身影。

结果，这一次并没有。

的确，这真的是目前我人生中最大的打击，

犹如那失去木藤支撑的牵牛花一样，

【一蹶不振】

堕落了些许日子，

看透许多事，

学会好多道理。

才发现，他说的每一句，

并不是没有道理。

我们也不是意见不合，不是想法不一样。

只是我没有他看得那么长远。

看法不同，成了纠纷的导火线。

许多他不允许我做的事情，

我从【我不能够那样做】，

转变成【我不要那样做】。

之前，我都是在压抑自己，

并没有完全认真的去改变。

后来才发现，这是一个心态的问题。

心态变了，许多事情就简单得多了。

虽然，这几天，他有明显对我不一样。

不再那么冷酷，看得出他还是很关心，

不否认我真的很开心。

但，我不想再像以前那样急进，

也不想去证实他那是同情还是感情。

当下没有复合的打算。

想说，等自己完全准备好了，

再重新出发。

不然，我们还是一样在同一个圆圈里瞎转。

受伤害的还是大家。

我一直以为，我改变自己是为了他。

但后来才发现，其实都是为了自己。

只要做好自己，不怕没有人要。

当我真的成功做到这点了，

他要是真的爱我的话，他会回来。

这次我学会，爱是要互相礼让。

我完全没做到这点。

这次，我退了好大一步，

为的是，想跟你一起写完

【那本我们还未完成的爱情故事】

天啊，突然弄翻了记忆的盒子。
回顾以往的照片。

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥当年还很青涩的我们♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

这些都是我最爱的珍藏品

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥只有在我面前才会流露那么可爱的表情♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥最爱你这个样子♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

圣诞节，你在大街上发脾气>//<

对不起，TT

还有好多我们的回忆。

video和照片

有些不能放上来，

不然baby会生气的，

（不可以生气哦～）

回顾这一切，

心里还是甜滋滋的

我想，你也一样吧。

不会忘记所有我们发生过的一切。

不过，好久没跟你回家了。

我想念你妈妈的饭香了～

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥我们最后一次旅行的【全家福】♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

相爱的人不会因为一句分手而结束，

更不会因为一个错误而真的做到一次不忠百次不容。

相爱的人会在感情的曲折里一起成长。

只要经过一个曲折熬了过去爱就又增长了点，

又一个曲折熬了过去大家学会珍惜对方一点。

一路下去爱越来越深，只会深深的相爱着，懂得对方的好，不会再分开。

recover

2011-11-17T09:37:00.000-08:00

these days I stayed at home.
enjoyed my leisure time with my family.
is so so warm =)
I'm not alone.
mom fetch me went interview at PJ today.
the sun was angry and being so hot today, and my mom waited me for around 1 hour plus outside the firm.
and she get scolded by her boss because she do personal stuff during working hours >.<
so touched eh mom
sorry and thanks!
I LOVE YOU

after reached wangsa, I find him immediately
thought he was not at home. but he is!
how excited I am =)
then I helped him massage and cut finger nails.
wash hair and facial. this is the thing that usually I do.
we bought hotdog and eat together then we back home ourselves.
I wonder izzit this will be the lastime we met?
coz I'm planning to move back to stay with family at serdang since my mom keep asking me to. =(

talked with mom and she told me a lot of thing.
I said I don't know why I can't plan things well.
she said I expect too much with limited ability.
yes. indeed. and suddenly I realized.
I was wrong everytime.
then. I started to 看开
I realize that everything was so wonderful
the air was fresh and the water was so sweet!
I stopped to say FML but replaced with I love my life =)
用心看待一切，世界更美好。
=)

baby kent ~

missing you.

anyway, I have set my goal.

my current goal was.

passed all my result and able to graduate on time!

if can graduate together with him is the best! =D hehehehe

study hard, work hard.

I love my life. ♥

此时此刻

2011-11-16T10:48:00.000-08:00

今天，

我承认，

回到家

原本就受伤了的心

显得更沉重。

昨夜完全没办法入睡

沉静的夜让我加倍落寞

很谢谢姐妹们的陪伴

很对不起让她们受惊吓了

自己也没发现原来我的面容那么憔悴

整个星期以来瘦了3公斤

她们很心疼

一个星期来每晚只睡了三个小时

没日没夜的哭一睡醒就哭哭累了还是睡不着

家人懂我的不对劲

也不敢问些什么

只是默默地在我身边陪伴我

直到我说要出去走走

他们才终于开口慰问

差点眼泪就要又不听话地掉下来了

逛了THE MINES 就逛JUSCO

买了本书，是关于如何做[自己]的一本书

也买了想买好久的娃娃鞋

因为我的粉红色娃娃鞋终于都破了

一边逛，一边游神

还是接受不了失去他的事实

几度飙泪

觉得这样下去不是办法

想去学瑜伽

一来可以修身养性

二来可以填补我空余的时间

不会胡思乱想

也想现在去学我想学很久的小提琴

可以纾解压力

得空在家练习我的画

加上不停地做FREELANCE

应该无暇再去伤心了吧？

and just now my mom brought me to drive car and see whether I can handle or not.

she was so worry and terrified haha so cute

she is going to buy a new one so eventually this car will belongs to me soon ;)

more convenient for me to looking for freelance job already. *claps*

my friend just told me that my deadline of resit year is 2013. I thought was 2012.

I was rush like shit and took 7 sub on the next sem. okay since I have to wait for exam, why don't I try to learn something new within this period rather than sit at home wait for him to come back? ;(

today in Popular saw some album with classical songs.

think to grab one of them but its so expensive and don't know nice or not.

classical songs able to upgrade someone's IQ.

and I guess it could make me fall asleep during the sleepless night ;(

I learnt many stuff this time as this time really a great huge impact for me in my life.

I shouldn't overrely on anyone. have to learn independent.

till now, only I know that family is the best no matter what happened.

they wont dump you alone. when anything happened to you, they always there.

especially my mom. thanks you, mom.

she keep comfort me and talked to me.

and my bestie as well.

they accompany me whenever I ask to.

somehow, I felt we should treat everyone with our heart faithfully .

special thanks to Lee Shuang, Tiffany, Miaw, Cherly and Mia.

and somehow his friend, Levin.

they helped me alot alot.

and one of my friend stated those statement that I strongly agree.

and I start to wonder about me and him.

love that person that's why they let each other go.

love someone does not mean to own that person.

in a relationship got love only that is not enough.

If having conflict frequently together is meaningless.

maybe you can say you would change because you love someone.

but it is no point to change forever. it will make you more suffer.

we're from 2 different world's people.

just like 海鸟跟鱼相爱，只是一场意外。

love a people you must accept the entire things of the another.

don't think that you will receive what you've gave to your loved one.

Do he know what I did is because of him?

eventually he will ask for more.

being like this is just torture yourself.

GOOD NOT MEANS SUIT!

I phoned him everynight just to hear a single little sentences from him.

imma useless.

yea, I MISS YOU BADLY BI.

Heartache

2011-11-15T09:07:00.000-08:00

It's all about to end.
473 days.
we fight for our relationship yet we can't success.
I knew, that's all my fault.
nothing to blame.
I still playful and immature.
don't know how to think like he do.
I rely on him and expect him to take care of every single things of me.
at the end, his work getting harder and harder.
pressure getting heavier and heavier.
so he has frustrated towards me and my act, my deed, the entire me.
the person who keep brings trouble and hard feeling to him.
I'm hereby to apologize
I'm sorry baby.

the way we treat each other was wrong.
I should treat you with all my heart but not check your history hardly.
I knew you're sincere to me, but I just used to check . that's my bad habit.

these days,
I cried so hard.
I scream deeply inside my heart at the top of my lungs like nobody business!
I begged him so hard yet I failed to get his forgiveness.
I knew I'm was too way out of line.
I'm bad. I'm the stone of your success.
but still, my heart is with you.

at this moment, my mind start to think that why every time I faced the same problem in my relationship?
I guess the problem is with me.
I start a relationship while I'm not ready yet.

am tired. tired of everything.
he was right. I was start thinking about the future.
I don't wanna to let him look down on me.
I must fight for my future.
I don't want to step on the same place anymore!
I need to upgrade myself .
people will choose you as you choose people.

I don't want to think about any relationship for current
I don't know I have to wait for him or not.
what if he found another more suitable girl for him at there?
who knows?
I'm just a piece of junk.

concentrate on my stuff and stop think about that Janice Liam Jia Chian.
IF HE BELONGS TO YOU, SOMEHOW HE WILL RETURN BY YOUR SIDE NO MATTER HOW NO MATTER WHAT.

so I just prepare and pray.
and wait...................... for miracle.

I love you, baby.

Good Night.

no matter how many times I said I don't care, I'm just acting.

世界的角落 ♥

2011-11-05T12:38:00.000-07:00

有时候

真的很想

跟相爱的那个人

一起

躲進世界的角落 ♥

the feeling is like when you ask me to

~~Describing why I love you, is like describing the taste of water.~~

sweet moment

2011-10-24T21:42:00.000-07:00

453 and 14

who is the loser ?

whoever got brain will know the answer very well ;)

baby still in love with me no matter how many times I hurt-ed him

how bad was me..

trying hard to be a good girl but I just can't =D

everyday when he is going to work while I'm still asleep

he will give me a kiss and say I LOVE YOU

you will got the feeling that everything is worthwhile

sweet ♥

apperception

2011-10-24T04:46:00.000-07:00

longtime never blog.
as u guys know I only blog while I'm having depression.
but it is not for today, so don't worry ;)

last week, I've start my phone survey job together with my housemate at Sri Rampai.
it is somewhere nearby my house but it still want me to take a rapid bus to reach there.
frankly I don't really like to take bus in Msia but I've no choice.

I started to understand the system in the office.
it's a survey on the satisfaction level of customer on the car they bought in Perodua for late.
normally they're willing to do the survey but there is a NO for mostly chinese.
If I were them I also wont waste my precious to do this such long survey with 63 question = =

same week, I have work together with my babe mia on HOMEDEC exhibition at KLCC.
you will never know what we gotta sell.
we're required to distribute flyers and explain the details of solid wood flooring to customers.
how the hell we know about wood ? it's not as easy as we thought.
then, I learned quite a lot during these four days as well.
I like to ask question for everything that I don't know haha
the supervisor taught me many things.
especially those will never be found in text books or lecture notes.
anyway, experience is the most powerful thing to make a job done completely.

today, I went Hong Leong Bank and intends to create an account and grab for the hello kitty limited edition debit card. it is so damn far away from my house, who knows when I reached there, the person told me it is finished or out of stock. I stunned.
then i felt nevermind, at least I still can get information for my braces transfer on the dentist clinic which is just right beside the bank ;)
as usual, I asked the doctor many question as well.
he taught me and let me more about RADIATION.
how it could harm us indirectly, it is really scary.
and even though I'm just in a age of 20 but I've already done for X-ray for more than 15 times.
even this time I still have to do it again for my tooth.
this means that the percentage that I could get cancer is much more higher than a normal person ;(
i hate this. the 15 times X-ray is being done while I'm was 6 and 16. both because of accident. same reason same leg same vehicle same hospital. I was really wondering, will I die on my 26? lols
then I requested to get the different type of braces treatment.
if I wish to change to a better treatment, I have 3 options.
whether is 4500, 6000 and 12000. the cheaper is 3500 but that is the type I having now.
I wish to get the 6000 one. mommy would you like to sponsor me? if not I have to work even harder for money

after all these things, I took a taxi and went jusco to get information from SASA as my friends told me that SASA would provide free make up for those who owning the card HEHEHEHE

then I walked back home myself and bought laksa as my dinner tonight.
satisfied ;)
felt happy yet shocked because now I realize the thing we know is really really limited.
I'm always wish to know more.
tends to be a knowledgeable person in many things as growth.
trying hard to be. ♥

you gotta make head of tail on these

2011-10-18T10:48:00.000-07:00

成长.

2011-09-07T06:29:00.000-07:00

很年轻的时候，妳不知道谈恋爱很困难。
妳遇到了一个人，妳喜欢他、他觉得妳很可爱。
他不会开口问妳要不要当他女朋友，只是有一天一起走在路上，他拉起妳的手。
妳们就在一起了..

妳们很快就认识彼此的朋友。大家把妳们当成一副耳环，他在的时候妳就会在。
妳们会存钱去旅行，住最便宜的旅馆，一路上大惊小怪。

妳们以为会在一起很久，无法想像有一天分开。
每一次的吵架，都以为世界不会再运转..

可是，那时候妳真的还太小。不知道相爱是一种福气。
以为一个人对妳好，就跟日昇月落一样理所当然。
妳们得不到想要的，就分手了..

然后，妳谈了一场又一场的恋爱。就像换季一样自然。有时候他爱妳比较多，有时候妳爱的太过头。朋友们看得胆战心惊，只有妳自己处变不惊。这些人是让妳伤心，但是妳没有痛苦过。妳了不起掉了几次眼泪，毫髮无伤。再爱的时候还是良心完整。

一直到，妳遇到了一个人。妳一直在找的那个人..

他和那些追妳的男生不一样：不会总是约妳去高级餐厅，而是要妳一起吃早餐。吃完饭后不去喝酒，只是一边说话一边走，看万家灯火。

他告诉妳去过的国家，将来会带妳去的地方。指著一个很高的房子，说以后一起过生活。妳沿著他的手臂到手掌，看到了回家的方向。

於是，妳开始收敛自己，不要再任性。第一次有了定下来的念头，第一次觉得和朋友在一起喝酒，比不过和他无所事事消磨的週末。

只是，爱情不是努力就可以。他留下了妳..

然后妳才知道了，原来，伤心是有层次的..
原来，伤心不是像发烧一样，流汗一个晚上就会没事..
原来，这就是所谓的痛苦，灵魂都知道..

分手的那几天，妳还能微笑以对。如常的作息，不要凸显对方的重要性。
过了一个月，妳人前人后都丢脸。
失眠到凌晨，痛哭失声之后醒来，捧不住满脸的眼泪。
妳以前总是第一个站起来举杯，现在走不进人多的场合。
妳没有自信，怕别人瞧不起妳。

妳喝了一整个海洋的酒，和妳的眼泪一样多。
不再运动打扮，把自己活的很丑。
朋友们都看在眼裡，他们担心，一直陪妳。

有一天，妳站在镜子前面，觉得分手的这一年，好像老了十岁。
妳决定收拾自己，再度光鲜亮丽。
开始又有人约妳，开始答应和别人出去。
妳终於又笑了起来、活了过来。

妳以为自己还像从前一样，加上一个人减了一个人，就能归零。
一直到要发展进一步的关係，妳才发现变化。

妳不知道接吻了做爱了算不算在一起..
妳不知道一天该打多少通电话。妳不知道找不到对方的时候该不该发简讯。
妳不知道要过多久才能带他来见朋友。妳不知道该不该让他知道妳最讨厌有姿态，
但是爱情为什麼就是要高来高去。

他没有每天打电话给妳，妳开始想放弃。妳加班到半夜，不期望他来接妳下班。
妳不想等待，於是回家就把手机当成钥匙一样，放著以后不管。
妳羡慕别人谈恋爱，但是不贸然跟进。
因为妳把幸福当成奢侈品，别人很幸运，不代表妳负担得起。

原来，
伤痕就像晒痕一样，
过了几个冬天都还是在..
只是妳没有把自己掀开来看。要一直到又曝晒..

只是有的时候，妳在庆幸现在学会了提早抽身，怎麼一个人也开心的时候。

会开始想念过去：
那时候妳理直气壮，为了应该有的对待据理力争。
那时候妳不会害怕有人突然要离开..
妳像是溺水过的人，好不容易上岸了，不愿意再载浮载沉。

只是有的时候，妳也会想，
爱情可能也是温水游泳池，不一定会失温..
妳要说服自己往下跳，才能知道深度..
才能发现原来已经学会了怎麼在，爱情裡面换气..

分享：
人就是在每次恋爱经验中学习成长..
等待是一条长长的路..

我的他在哪里

2011-08-31T13:31:00.000-07:00

当你的心真的在痛，

眼泪快要流下来的时候，

那就赶快抬头看看，

这片曾经属于我们的天空；

当天依旧是那么的广阔，

云依旧那么的潇洒，

那就不应该哭，

因为我的离去，

并没有带走你的世界。

置身事外

2011-08-30T22:31:00.000-07:00

最近周围都特别有气氛

因为 RAYA 和MERDEKA 撞在了一起

朋友们都在庆祝着各种节日

我哪儿都没去

之前的计划根本没落实

就自己一个人在空无一人的屋子

都不懂在等什么等运到？= =

从来都没试过那么打从心里的孤单

他走了心就空了

我不知道我到底怎么了

没有了他我好仿佛在这地球上什么都不是

还以为自己真的很强很潇洒

在人前人后都扮演着狠角色

可是现在快不行了

卸下面具看见自己的支离破碎

很不忍。

男生都不懂

女孩说分手只是为了被挽留

一个人反复地听着这首他妈妈喜欢唱的歌

觉得很有味道

《跟往事干杯》

经过了许多事
你是不是觉得累
这样的心情
我曾有过几回
也许是被人伤了心
也许是无人可了解
现在的你我想一定
很疲惫
人生际遇就象酒
有的苦有的烈
这样的滋味
你我早晚要体会
也许那伤口还流着血
也许那眼角还有泪
现在的你让我陪你
喝一杯
干杯,朋友
就让那一切成流水
把那往事
把那往事当作一场宿醉
明日的酒杯莫再要装着昨天的伤悲
请与我举起杯
跟往事干杯
举起杯
跟往事干杯

如果真的能把往事

我和他的往事当成一种宿醉

也许就不会那么痛了。

never give up ♥

2011-08-15T17:00:00.000-07:00

放弃从来都不应该是我说的

倒数两天

怎样都好我不想睡觉

不是我不要是不能

一闭上双眼就梦见在考场无助的情景

天啊第一次对睡觉有恐惧感

第一次觉得睡觉是多么奢侈的事情

怎样都好挨完它吧

也许就是最后一次了

她说的对不可以放弃！

加油～～～

给所有在与学业大战的朋友

来一张憔悴的样子
其实还蛮喜欢 CLG 的 ♥

未来的路

2011-08-15T09:22:00.000-07:00

一转眼我们的Diploma即将接近尾声了

还以为两年四个月会很漫长

没想到这只是一瞬间的事情

其实很懊恼

在这说长不长说短不短的两年里

发生许多事

如果镜子可以像电视机那样

把我们的点点滴滴都反映出来的话

你会发现许多奇妙的事

你会发现你的成长

至于目前最彷徨的莫过于毕业了该往哪里走

心情一直都犹豫不决

到底该继续升学还是出社会工作

还要顾虑男友的问题

不然毕业之后我想我早就置身国外了

期末考近在咫尺

然而我却还像那毛毛虫般懒散

或许虫虫们都比我勤劳吧

看不见我的未来

人们说前途一片光明

怎么我就不觉得啊？

感叹。

害怕未知数。

latest

2011-06-14T02:37:00.000-07:00

HI HI! my dusty bloggie !

longtime no see.miss me anot?HEHE

apologize for the neglect and my laziness

simply update here

my baby is rushing his no day no night assignment AGAIN

abandon me alone here

well, i'm okay with that ;D

recently live quite healty

every morning will get myself a cup of honey

intend to get a thin waist like her

everyday will get myself a spoon of ginseng before sleep

wearing the lingeric that given by my mom everyday for 3-5 hours

those stuff worth RM2000++

so I should make used of it

to get perfect body line hahaha (although i felt my body already perfect just unsatisfied with my height)

read those novel that I bought couple months ago

upgrade myself *heee*

don't wanna be a vase

你明白我意思吗？

哈哈哈

recently chasing a lot drama..

one of them is 醉后决定爱上你‘

*别再自以为是了

无论你怎么努力

也改变不了任何事情

他是完完全全属于我一个人的

【还是你愚蠢到，以为你有那个魅力，可以把他从我身边抢走】*

If YOU this bitchy would step in and view my blog please see here carefully

this sentence is for you! stop dreaming! he is mine ;D

currently chasing those news from nicholas tze and cecilia cheung

rumors spreads everywhere

anyway, I really don't hope them to be get separated

I love both of them

me want them stay happily together ever after

*finger cross*

I love her this much! she is my idol..superstar *wink wink*

erm..the most exciting thing was i'm selected for the PD event

yeah ;D don't feel like going to work but me love beach!

anxious about that and hope my friends will be selected too

because i'm not going to work alone ;(

the second things was I get selected for another dealer job at JULY too

but surprisingly, I received their message about the salary couple minutes ago

they deducted my salary from RM900 to RM810

asked for reason

they replied and state that those are for transportation

what the...............

fine.......

just wanna gain experience for work out station alone

but my boyfriend not really support me from doing all these

anyway, money gets the first priority right?

without money human can do nothing

this is the reality

stop saying that money isn't everything

be mature and try to get involve in this society

well, I have the FAP test tomorrow

and I left my note beside couple hours ago

and never touch it

keep chasing drama LOL

after finish the drama will study lar

*promise*

heeee

oh ya,

i'm going back hometown this weekend!

hello there,longtime no see!

I miss you guys ♥

haven't see you guys of late

how are you?

see ya

learning english idioms

must learnt a new word/sentence everyday

okay

feel this is pretty meaningful

exactly what I've learn in another books

Clothes do not make the man,

but what is behind the clothes, that is his character, does

与其到处寻觅条件好的男人，

不如实际的选择一个适合自己的男人。 ♥

成为属于他的公主

by Janice Chian

copyright

leave

2011-02-25T02:25:00.000-08:00

is being two days

you are not with us

feel weird

like something losing

we know each other since sem 1

what we like to do is gossip all the time

don't feel like stop it even tutor and classmates are complaining about us

cheating in the class

mirror-ing

camwhore everywhere

having breakfast beside the road together

all these memories

I'll never ever forget

when I'm in a trouble

you lent me your hand

when I'm depressed

you borrow me you shoulder

when I'm confused

you show me the right way

how am I gonna live without you

please,it's just a friendship x)

a TRUE FRIENDSHIP

you din't even say GOOD BYE

with us

and

I nafsu for your goodbye kiss terribly

promise

please take care yourself there

do not let scissor hand chase you again okay? :)

don't fall too easy towards those flower heart's guy ya..

sayang yourself much more

miss you seriously here

='(

很不舍得

hope I'll be fine soon

very down

can sing k with feel already

maybe can slim down?

I love you, this friend

this is not kidding.

|转帖| 一女孩博客公开整容全过程 |整完后感觉像Angelababy|

2011-01-14T19:48:00.001-08:00

整容後。

先发以前的照片，其实也不是很丑，只是说不上惊为天人的美。

和他男朋友

看她博客说很感谢这个男生在她不漂亮的时候陪了她几年。

割双眼皮。

才做完，感觉有点肿，还是有点KB。

做了鼻子，削颧骨，割双眼皮，开眼角。

这个是恢复期，已经好看很多了。

过了一段时间之后的效果。

她和她朋友，感觉两个人都是在一家医院做，很漂亮。

素顏。

的确很像AB，不知道是哪里做的，居然这么神奇。

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